Last Monday an individual I had told I want no contact with chose to surprise me. When you don't have a good relationship with an individual and you set a boundary to protect yourself and it is ignored, it does a lot of damage emotionally, mentally and physically. I cannot explain the effect that this individual's surprise appearance had on me other than that it was devastating and put me in danger of losing my job. This painting is trying to visualize the effect which still

The person stands there looking up into the dark sky "Why?" they ask "Why?" "What do I do with these emotions?" "How do I heal from this mess; this trampled mess of my life?" "How do I let myself deal with these emotions without being overwhelmed?" they ask as they stand there trying to hold this burning ball of emotions that threatens to drown them. Pain shoots through their body as they struggle to hold this burning mass that was handed to them by people who abused them in

Please be kind with your comments... https://www.wildernesstowild.com/community/public/posts/77356-is-your-pastor-doing-the-devil-s-work I think I would also add that when Christians imply to other hurting Christians that they shouldn't feel sad or angry or any other "negative" emotion. I read something the other day that mentioned that we are drawn to laughter but for some reason we as humans find it so hard to accept the emotions on the other end of the spectrum. We try to

Just sharing my ponderings...please be respectful with your comments.... I saw this post the other day and I thought about how well they take care of their horses. Yesterday I saw a reel about a giant of a horse who had been rescued from the killpen at an auction put there by an Amish farmer. A while ago I had been looking at horses for sale and stumbled across a story about the New Holland sales stables and some of the horses that come through there from Amish and Mennonites

I'm being very vulnerable here...please be kind with your comments... I about want to say this and mean it except it's not my mind...it's my body...for years I just wanted to be normal and people looking at me might say I look normal but I certainly don't feel normal...I've been reading lately of how trauma and abuse affects the body and how the body stores abuse and trauma memories and pain resulting in physical issues and illnesses if the memories and pain are not processed