What Can I Do?

Last night I unfollowed a number of people on social media because I cannot handle the pain of the events that they share. For a while now I've been pondering what is the best course of action that I can take regarding all the horrible traumatic things happening around the world and even more so, in this country.

There are times I find myself feeling another's hopelessness in their situation.

Another's horror at justice gone wrong.

Another's fear of what lies ahead.

Another's anger at all the injustice.

And I can feel the pain and trauma I can only imagine that yet others are enduring when finding their lives vaporized and finding themselves whisked away to an unknown place where justice does not prevail.

I have struggled to know what to do.

How to respond.

How to make a difference.

Since I feel so deeply I have to be very careful to protect myself or be overwhelmed with other's pain and energy.

And I keep asking myself but what can I do because it seems so wrong to shield myself from the collective pain in the world.

This morning I woke up dreaming about helping a friend who is in a dire situation and being overcome with tears and grief at the destitute situation they find themselves in and I have no way of practically helping because of my own dire situation and as I pondered this dream I realized that I know now how I want to help.

What good does it do to scream into the void?

Demanding change?

Being enraged at the coldness and lack of compassion advocates and others have towards those in destitute and dire situations?

What good does it do, I ask myself?

Is it not just adding to all the drama, gossip, apathy and pain of the world and adding to the overwhelm and hopelessness of those seeking help and not finding it?

Is it not just creating an even bigger cloud of darkness and negativity even if that's not our intent?

I know now what I can do.

What I actually want to do.

I want to send love, compassion and healing.

It is possible.

Long distance energy healing is possible.

I have experienced it.

I've been learning about it.

And now I know that this...this is how I can help.

This is how I want to help.

I have a lot to learn before I may be able to use it as I desire to help the world heal. To help individuals heal. Yelling into the void never resonated with me. Advocacy never resonated with me. But it feels good to finally know that there's a way I can help lift the burden instead of adding to the noise.